Ella was my first love - an immeasurably deep love. Too hot the eye of heaven shone, and when we split I thought the pain would never end. I sensed then that I would never again feel that same intensity, that same desperate longing - and so it proved during the nineteen years that followed: the nineteen years it took to re-build a grey-scale but contented life. I got into the habit of not thinking about her any more, and by then had other commitments to honour.Then out of the blue ...